Dec. 6th, 2011
So, the summer brought many highs and lows. Running was a definite high. I love it and can't wait to get back in the swing of it! Also WW brought highs in the form of losing...I lost 18lbs over the summer, unfortunately the lack of participation in both WW and running has caused an upswing in weight. Then the low...relationship after relationship failed. I don't know what I was doing wrong, things always start out great I guess. I think my biggest issue is lack of communication, and that comes directly from insecurity. So here I am, a student again, living on my own, and single. Hmmm...I think I've heard this one before...oh yeah, it was 2 years ago. I seriously feel like I live my life in circles, never actually getting anywhere.
So, the summer brought many highs and lows. Running was a definite high. I love it and can't wait to get back in the swing of it! Also WW brought highs in the form of losing...I lost 18lbs over the summer, unfortunately the lack of participation in both WW and running has caused an upswing in weight. Then the low...relationship after relationship failed. I don't know what I was doing wrong, things always start out great I guess. I think my biggest issue is lack of communication, and that comes directly from insecurity. So here I am, a student again, living on my own, and single. Hmmm...I think I've heard this one before...oh yeah, it was 2 years ago. I seriously feel like I live my life in circles, never actually getting anywhere.
School is great, I'm getting my teaching cert, and I absolutely ADORE the kids, but it is just a bummer that I have to go back to school. My church closed down, leaving me with a lack of job and a lack of confidence in ministry. I thought that if things were meant to be they would just fall into place, not for Aleece Jenne I guess. I'm not bitter so much as I am disappointed. I really wanted all my work during Grad school to culminate in a job in ministry. Nope. Didn't happen. Although I am glad for what I was able to be a part of at Waterland, and very thankful to be back in contact with Tom and his family. So, although all my little adventures don't last very long, they do give me something other than frustration, anger, and sadness.
Here I am, now where it seems I was years ago, starting over, again. This time I am much more tired and wary of what my future brings. I have had my heart broken and am skeptical of love in my future. But I suppose that should be on the periphery anyway. Health and school are my priorities now, but school books and medicine bottles can't cuddle you at night :(
Pray that I can last through this journey without becoming too discouraged. I know discouragement will come, but I pray I can overcome it and continue forward to the finish. Pray that I can get back to running or exercise of some kind that will bring me joy...this is something that has been lacking in my life for a while. Pray that God shows up...cause right now I'm questioning what hes been up to lately.
~Aleece
