The Future is Now

June 4th, 2018

It’s Aleece, coming to you LIVE from the future ;)

It has been six years?! It feels like yesterday when I began opening my heart to the world. As I read and reflect on my previous posting, my heart breaks for such a tortured soul. A girl who needed self acceptance, self love, and self confidence. Although a layer of those characteristics has always stood present in my personality, they manifested more like a “wading pool,” of sorts.

I come to you now as a married woman (🎉) examining her life and prioritizing. I have been blessed with the most understanding husband, and for that I have no words to thank God for this blessing. How my husband can see through the shadows/struggles and see me... is humbling.

I have come to a place in my life where I am limited not only by my mental health, but my physical body. In Aug. of ‘17 I had the first of two knee surgeries. They went beautifully and I had such strong hopes that the pain in my knees had been healed. I spent three months living in a wheel chair until my second surgery. Almost six months out, and my heart is heavy with the fear that I will never again be as mobile as my heart, mind, and body want. I watch “Dance Mom’s,” to feed the need and desire for dance and choreography. I use a cane or crutches often, and have to drive a motorized scooter in large stores.

Something inside me thinks that if I weren’t so heavy, I could deal with all of these changes. I could cope soemehow because people wouldn’t see a “fat chick” who doesn’t walk.

I am working hard on changing my mindset. Here is to the continuation of my journey.

God Bless You
❤️Aleece