God’s Generosity (A Devotion)

In the midst of this surgery, one of the things that I hav yet to do is ask God if this is right for me. I think it’s easy to assume that because doors are open, God wants you to walk through them. But, I think also we have to have the wisdom to discern which doors God is calling us through. I only have but mere days before my procedure and so I decided instead of asking a friend instead of ignoring my thoughts, that I would dive into some kind of devotion and the Bible. 

First I grabbed the Bible and then I grabbed Free of Charge.

It’s a book that I was assigned to read in graduate school and absolutely fell in love with. I recommend it to anyone especially those of the Christian faith. I recommend to non-Christians because I think it’s a better reflection of what Christianity is. I think it’s a better reflection of what Jesus calls of us. Originally I was going to skim book, looking at just the portions I had highlighted but instead I decided to read it cover to cover. One of the things that stood out to me tonight is “we are saved by God‘s generosity. “ I simmered on that thought for a moment. As I look around my bedroom I come to the realization that everything I have is through God‘s generosity, not because I work hard enough to get it or my dad was able to provide it for me, but God was generous enough to allow me to have the things that I have.

I’ve always had this vision in my head of being successful and married and have a huge house and many children by the time that I reach 35. This story is a story, the reality is much different. I dream about moving into a bigger nicer home, though homeownership is out of our reach due to my student loans. But reading this quote, it dawned on me that God is being generous and allowing me to focus on my health, without having to worry about money. So, God is sending down generosity and yet I would, instead of looking at what he is generously providing for my family, I’m looking in a different direction wanting more. It was just a wake up call, that although I was seeking answers for a different question I think that the reminder to be grateful and thankful for God‘s enormous generosity that surrounds every bit of my home. It’s not just the things, it’s the doctors, it’s my family, it’s my dog Memphis. 

God is pouring out generosity to me at this moment in time, but what does that mean for other people? What does that mean for other people who are not in the situation that I am in. Why is God and not showing on the same generosity, because the whole point of this book is that were saved by grace and not deed. So it’s not that I am a “good person” and therefore I get things. I suppose that pondering is better left for another day.