The Meantime

Oct. 15th, 2012

I know I have referenced the breakup, but I don't know if I really want to talk about it yet. He is still on my mind constantly. I am starting to become numb to the pain...I am figuring out how to re-direct my mind so that I don't feel the hurt within my soul. But my thoughts are still fixed to see what would bring brightness to his world; my eyes see what would delight him. He always said I made him so happy...

I thanked God in so many moments with him, so many moments. Just so grateful that I had this incredible man who cared for me. Life was making sense.

And now, with part of me missing, I have to wake up everyday and move forward - without the person I want to be living for.

God's timing is supposed to be perfect...but in the meantime, what does He mean for us to do with the hurt?

~A