Today was a rest

Oct. 29. 2012

WOW. What a great day. I am seriously surprised. I had a terrible nights sleep, so I ended up sleeping until 2 this afternoon. But, I got up, was really positive and cleaned my apartment! It has been such a mess for SO long, this last year hasn't left me much time to keep my place in order. But today I accomplished SO much. Not only cleaning up, but organizing, purging crap, and hanging things. I feel really good about all that got done today.

I'm sure it seems silly to be so happy and proud of myself to get this place in order, but my life has been so much grieving lately that having any effort to be productive is a victory.

I am still trying to figure out how to be OK with not being with Adam anymore. I don't want to get too into that in this post, because today has been great and I don't want to be sad about him right this second, lol. And then, my poor dog Coltrane was diagnosed with hydrocephalus- swelling of the brain due to infection, virus, cancer...we don't know why yet. So trying to juggle school, medical responsibilities, school, and getting my place cleaned up has been hard when I am an hour from my house holding my sweet baby boy. It has been really hard to watch him struggle, but all I can do is pray for him and make his life full of love. He is my last little ray of sunshine (the other two being my Gramma and Adam). I need him here, so feel free to say a quick prayer for my sweet puppy boy.

Today was just the rest my mind needed from all the stress (I hate that word) surrounding my life right now.

I am in some pain in my lower abdomen...my uteran area ;) due to the D&C. When I lift or move anything heavy, it hurts my stomach SO bad. I don't really know why, but I am not supposed to be lifting or moving anything for 4-6weeks after the procedure;  It's been 5 weeks so I thought I would be OK. I never did ask my Dr. why it hurts so bad when I lift something heavy, maybe do to the uterus healing? I'm assuming this is why...any other suggestions welcomed.

Well, I'm now off to relax with a midterm and some research. Keep those prayers coming...cause they are working.

Love you all you guys,
Aleece